I May Be Small …..But God


God uses small things. He used Moses’ staff to part the water of the red sea, he gave Sampson the jawbone of a donkey to kill a thousand men, Gideon could only take an army of three hundred men against one hundred and thirty-five thousand Midianites, David took five stones and a sling to defeat Goliath, Jesus took the little boy’s lunch to feed five thousand. We throw down tiny seeds and there is a harvest.

Mark 4:26-29 says,

And he was saying, “The kingdom of God is like a man who casts seed upon the soil; and he goes to bed at night and gets up by day, and the seed sprouts and grows — how, he himself does not know. “the soil produces crops by itself; first the blade, then the head, then the mature grain in the head.

“But when the crop permits, he immediately puts in the sickle, because the harvest has come.”

Sometimes I feel very small. Often when I see myself failing I am tempted to believe God sees me as a failure too.

Recently  I was reminded of a word God gave me during the 2016 Everywoman Conference at C3 Oxford Falls, Sydney. At the time I had four kids, my youngest a baby, my eldest just six years old. I was emerging out of a period of complete ingratitude brought on by 3 babies in three years and no sleep. Since the conception of Grace our 4th child we had moved into a time of ‘Grace’ and now I could see areas in my family that I wanted to lay down before the Lord.

The speaker, Pastor Chris Pringle, asked us to fire off arrows to God. So that night I went home and prayed over 5 arrows, a full quiver. On five separate arrows I wrote my prayers. Then prayed each one and wrote God’s response underneath them in my conference journal.

On the 4th arrow I wrote,

“I am an advocate not an accuser”

Then I prayed and this is what I wrote below the arrow,

“Up until this point I have complained in bitterness of Spirit. I have looked for sympathy with man. But God showed me in a dream that I am the rudder of my family’s ship, through the storms/winds/waves of life and my captain said, “stay the course”. 

“You only need to be silent I will fight for you”

“The fourth arrow is an arrow of prayer. I will take all my requests to God in prayer. I will be an advocate like Jesus and I will not fail.

“In this world you will have trials and struggles but I have overcome the world.”

I am small, but so is a rudder.

James 3:4 says,

Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go.

A ship without a rudder is adrift, at the mercy of the waves, at the mercy of the wind and weather. A ship without a rudder will easily capsize, run aground and sink.

With a rudder a ship can change course.

God is not concerned by my failures. I am the rudder, I can change course. If God is my Captain I will be back on course in line with him very soon. No he is not concerned because he holds the map. His hands are on the wheel. He brings me in line and soon the whole ship will be in line.

The rudder is a funny little thing. Today when I thought about it, I realised the rudder never sees what the Captain sees. If I am the rudder I must believe what I cannot see and follow the steering of my Captain. My view will never be his view in the natural. The captain sees the stars, while the rudder sees the jellyfish behind the boat. You cannot navigate by the jellyfish. Plus a ship’s destination is always above the surface and at the front of the boat. To be the rudder I must follow and lean where the Captain steers.

The rudder is below the water. If the rudder comes out of the water it cannot do it’s job. The Holy Spirit is called the living water in the bible. Jesus says if we drink the living water we will never be thirsty again. But it is not just for drinking. The living water is for full immersion. To work a rudder must be fully immersed. Dry it can only flap around. When I fully immerse myself in the Holy Spirit, I can ‘Stay the Course’.

This afternoon my girls got into the back of the car and began to fight. I turned the radio up loud to drown it out and my son Luca, bless him, switched the song to a worship song. “You need this Mum,” he said.

That was when I realised this was not a luxury passenger liner I was steering. Or maybe it was but, my family are not passengers, they are the crew. In that moment it was Luca’s job to make sure the rudder stayed in the water.

I found myself wondering what all their roles were. What was it they do on the ship? But then I realised that was the Captain’s job, to give work to the crew, not mine. My job was to stay under the water and stay the course.

I hope you are blessed today and encouraged to Stay the Course! Whether it’s your tongue, or your feet, or your hands, or your mind that needs taming, I pray that you will be empowered to follow your Captain’s orders. I pray that you will have the belief to put your rudder back in the water. The Captain says, “Set a Course!” May you have the courage to follow it.

Be blessed, be encouraged,

Lots of love,


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