Me with my beautiful Nana in 2007 at my brother’s wedding.
Part 1 of this post can be found here.
When my Nana was dying my brother and sister and I kept vigil by her bed in the hospital for 3 days.
It was 3 days of prayer. At one point as I repeated the scripture; “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path” (Psalm 119:105) over and over in my prayer I had a vision.
In the vision I was walking barefoot along a grassy track. The light was low around my feet, everything else was like night. Then the light began to rise up. I could see that I was in a white robe and there was another set of feet beside me. Feet with nail marks in them. The light rose to our waists and I could see a third person on the other side of Jesus. It was my Nana. They were holding hands. Jesus held out his hand to me and I took it. It was warm and I began to skip around like a child. Unable to contain myself. But Jesus motioned gently that I walk in step with him.
When I slowed down, and matched my steps with My Lord, where we were going came into focus. The light rose again and this time I could see the path illuminated in front of us and at the end was the light of heaven.
I have never desired anything as much as I desired that light. I could happily have gone that day if it were my turn.
But after a while Jesus walked on, with Nana, without me, and the vision faded.
Nana had not passed on yet. She died 30 hours later but those last 30 hours were hope filled as we walked in step with the Lord.
When heaven is your focus, everything else just falls into place.
When we as a couple are not in step with the spirit, even good systems, habits and communication skills, although helpful can still fall apart.
In our marriage we have had plenty of times when one of us has an issue because we are out of step with God. (Sometimes it’s both of us at the same time!)
Recently my husband had his turn.
It was a moment that could only be dealt with at the end of the night. With 5 kids sometimes there is no other time.
We could have cuddled and I could have listened and said “There, there” until I was blue in the face but this was a time when we decided to separate and devote ourselves to prayer. We both knew full well that prayer and scripture were missing and anything else would be a bandaid on a broken bone.
It needed that groaning prayer of the spirit that can’t be done in company so we prayed in separate rooms but as it was a mutual decision we were two gathered in his name, in our house, at that moment and that he was with us both.
The scripture that God gave me during that prayer time was Galatians 5:1-2. (Galatians5:1 – 6:1 is the entire scripture.)
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not be encumbered once more by a yoke of slavery. Take notice: I, Paul, tell you that if you let yourselves be circumcised, Christ will be of no value to you at all.
And I asked myself, that hard question. What were we letting circumcise us? What were we trading our freedom to obtain?
Galatians 5:25 says,
since we live by the spirit let us keep in step with the spirit.
It was not the first time we both had to repent and have a change of pace in our spirit, to get ourselves back in step with the Lord. This kind of repentance is what our marriage is built on.
I can pretty much guarantee that all great Christian marriages are built on this same repentance and walking in step with the spirit.
Repentance is one of my favourite Christian virtues. Not at the time. It’s pretty horrible while I do it. Afterwards, when I see the fruit, that’s when I want to shout to everybody I see, “Repent and Believe!” because I know what comes next, closeness to God and the bestowing of his gifts, including closeness to each other.
I encourage you as you endeavour to walk in step with the Spirit, listen when God nudges you to repent. Remember he can see the other side of it. Repentance is for our benefit. We just have to believe and step into his gifts, and back in step with the Holy Spirit.
Bless you today, be encouraged to be real with God. He wants to be real with us.
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Lots of love