I was praying for someone the other day, who is too easily offended. Everything hurts. Even a simple explanation of what they are doing is given on the defensive. At times it is exhausting to be with them.
I was praying because I love them.
As I prayed I saw this beautiful person with a huge dagger in their heart. Around the dagger was gauze and bandaging, bloodied and only just holding the wound together. And I saw them receiving a small scratch, tiny even, and it was so painful because the tiny scratch went straight past the bandages, and landed in the broken, wounded, and painfully infected, flesh around the dagger.
So often we expect the wounded to fix themselves.
In Luke 9:31-43 there is a story about a demon possessed boy with symptoms much like a severe and violent epilepsy. The disciples could not fix him or drive the spirit out.
“You unbelieving and perverse generation,” Jesus says to them, “How long shall I stay with you and put up with you?
He says this, not to those hangers on who are trying to get a glimpse of the spectacle, he says this to his disciples. Unbelieving and perverse he calls them; his closest friends.
When I thought about this I realised, I was being perverse and unbelieving about the dagger. I was expecting healing to come without the Lord. I was using Godly principles to help the person, even scripture but not the person of the Holy Spirit, the person of Jesus and the person of God the Father. I had stepped into the theoretical. It is so easy to do. Even the disciples did it. Perversity is forgetting the person of the Lord; it is not hard to pervert the ways that God has intended us to live, we just have to do life without him.
If we want to be perverse we simply stop believing God is really present with us, turn, even slightly and take a step away.
The disciples hadn’t walked far…no, they were right next to their Lord. But they were no longer working together with the Lord. For some reason, pride perhaps? they were trying to heal the boy in their own strength.
Just like I’ve been trying to bandage around that dagger, when only the Lord can pull it out.
“Bring your son here!” Jesus says to the father of the child.
If we want healing we need to go direct to God.
Bring our sons, daughters, husbands, wives, friends, acquaintances, bosses, colleagues, strangers we come across; bring them all to Jesus. We need to walk again with our Lord, in step with the spirit, holding the hand of Jesus, touching those scars, looking to make contact with the eyes of the Father that strengthen the righteous. We need to let go of perversity and unbelief. We need to humble ourselves again and ask the Lord of Lords himself to help our unbelief.
So I am humbling myself to pray for the person I love, the one with the dagger. I am taking them straight to Jesus. I am also asking God to show me more daggers, in more people, and asking him to help me to bring them to the Lord.
Be encouraged if you have a dagger in your heart, if you are easily hurt or saddened, let me take you to Jesus himself so that you too will be healed and astonished.
Pray with me,
“Lord I do believe, forgive my unbelief, I come to you, I turn to you, thank you for healing me.”
Luke 9:41-43 says,
Jesus answered, “O faithless and twisted generation, how long am I to be with you and bear with you? Bring your son here.” While he was coming, the demon threw him to the ground and convulsed him. But Jesus rebuked the unclean spirit and healed the boy, and gave him back to his father. And all were astonished at the majesty of God.
Lots of love,
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